I'll say hello to you, when you say goodbye to her

-Assalamualaikum-

Pernah tak y'all berada dalam situasi bila you like/love someone tapi dia tak tahu or even dia tahu pun dia buat buat tak tahu or dalam erti kata lain, y'all bertepuk sebelah tangan, pernah tak?


Frankly speaking, I'd been in this situation, before. Seriously, it's never would be the end of the world when the one you love never love you back. And this is my story.


Aku boleh yakin la yang aku memang betul betul love him. Bukan like admire adore ke ape ke tapi memang betul love cause till now I still can't find any reason why I love him. I just love him the way he is. As people used to say that LOVE is when you don't know why you seem to be attracted to a person, ey. Semua benda yang dia buat, nampak perfect dimata aku. Aku deny dengan kata-kata tapi aku tak mampu deny dalam hati aku.

it's sweet when the manly hands are holding you 

Aku kenal dia masa aku form 2, fall for him masa form 3 till ... aku pun tahu sampai bila. He's in the same class with me masa form2, form3 and form5. Aku boleh kata baik la jugak dengan dia masa form3 but then terkantoi dengan dia yang aku ada hati dengan dia terus dia tak cakap dengan aku dah. Tapi both of us buat macam nothing happened. Bila berselisih masa jalan, I was with my friends and so do him, dia akan tegur kawan-kawan aku yet never me. Tak kan aku nak marah kan? Buat biasa dah la. I act like I don't care, but deep inside, it hurts.


Aku happy sebab aku sayang dia. Aku pun tak tahu kenapa. Even dia tak pernah balas feeling(s) aku tapi aku tak pernah kesah and I don't know why. To have him in my class masa tu was a heaven to me. Excited sangat bila dapat tahu akan satu kelas. Aku tahu dia tak pernah suka aku tapi aku tak kesah sebab untuk aku sayang dia, adalah hak aku tapi untuk dia balas perasaan aku, itu totally hak dia dan aku memang tak boleh nak paksa dia untuk balas perasaan aku at the same time dia pun tak boleh nak marah aku sebab sayang dia. That's what happened to us. 

those lil cute-adorable flowers

and I picked ONE 

Aku yang gedik ni selalu kacau dia, aku suka bagi dia ice-creams and chocolates. Aku suka tengok dia dalam diam-diam atau dalam erti kata lain spying on him. Aku suka snap his pictures. Aku simpan buat koleksi SEMUA gambar dia. Ada yang dia tengah tidur, makan, minum. Gambar kucing dia pun aku simpan kot. Aku curi gambar and name-tag dia. Aku datang kelas time budak lelaki solat jumaat semata-mata nak so-called 'selongkar' meja, beg, loker dia. Bila ingat balik, it's totally a silly-crazzy part of me.haha. Somehow, aku rasa cute gila perasaan bila kau suka orang tapi dia tak reply perasaan kau. And you act like you don't care even if you care. Comel, is'nit?


After SPM aku berkobar gila nak forget him. Aku delete gambar dia yang dalam my collection, aku delete number dia dalam phone aku. I tried to delete all things that related to him. Guess what? I failed. Cause I never can delete the memories in my mind. Pity me. Uh-huh. The best-worst-exciting-teribble-awesome-terrified part is, AKU SAMA UNIVERSITI DENGAN DIA. Can y'all imagine how I feel that time? Demmm! Aku excited gila time tu. Boleh imagine tak dalam banyak-banyak universiti dekat M'sia ni UIA jugak aku dan dia bertemu. And here's the place where a new chapter of us started :)


I never know how this can happened but I think HE plans this for us. WE'RE FRIENDS, now. Shall I say we both are being good-best friends. I still love him but every time I remind of him I used to say to my heart that he's ONLY a friend of mine and never can be more that that. And Alhamdulillah, I'm fine with it. Incredible yet it happened. Me myself also hardly believe that I can make it this far. We both hangout together at UIA. We share whatever that we feel like sharing it. And, know what peeps, I guess that's the most wonderful thing that can ever be happened to me and him.

i love you but i know we're just friends

To those who being in my shoes, this is for you; 

Sometimes, the best way to stay close

to someone you love

is by being 

JUST A FRIEND 

It might hurt you but trust me, it's worth it to be hurt for. It's your worst nightmare to lose someone you love so being just a friend is wayy better than losing them,ey. Take it easy and enjoy every second when you're with them and again trust me that someone will love you more than you love your unrequited lover. 






Aku still sayang kau tapi aku tahu kau dan aku hanya kawan :')